Here's some of my truth*
I spent the first 33 years of my life in a depressive fog. Sometimes it was thick as night, other times a bit more clear. Enough so, I could see the echos of rainbow light reaching my murky bubble.
I had an odd mixture of negative programming that infiltrated my every thought, word, and action and it was quite literally, running my life.
I was a helpless victim to my beliefs and emotions, and it was most likely someone else's fault.
Smiling and full-on laughter was sparse, replaced by deepening lines that in my forehead and around my mouth.
And play??? Absurd.
I knew not of play.
Even when my sweet little babies urged me to play imagination games with them, my brain would just short circuit and I would get overwhelmingly tired.
Play was not existent in my reality because I was constantly viewing life through a filter of, "Life is hard, depressing, and difficult".
Through this lens, the rainbows were distant, and play was nowhere to be found.
Fast forward a few years, and I've had the blessed opportunity to have Mystic Hot Springs as my home. A place where the layers of guilt, shame, and unworthiness felt safe to shed. I started seeing my value and worth, and got more and more aware of how my old mind programming needed to be updated to accommodate my new sense of self.
I went to Hypnotherapy school to learn how to do just that, and have been completely blown away at the power of the mind and how Hypnotherapy offered me such immediate transformation.
Now I can say I have a life that I'm so in love with.
I have a life that feels precious, and every moment is a gift.
I have a life that feels worth living.
With old ways of being gone, and new filters and lenses in place, rainbows are everywhere and I have infinite reasons to smile, laugh, even play!!!
Which brings me to YOU*!
I want to play with you!
(That sounds creepy, I know, but what if it didn't?)
Along with some of my gal pals, we are hosting a few events this coming weekend in Salt Lake City.
I invite you to come play with us!
(Learn more at www.aubreyixchel.com)
Much Love and Play to YOU*
❤🌈🙏🏼
A Poem Of Now*
There is nothing else than what is now.
There is no other way than this.
There is no other You in any other place.
Look around.
You can only be where You are.
You are only right here, nowhere else.
YOU are here.
YOU are now.
YOU are perfection.
There is no other way around it.
There is no other truth.
Just like a Rainbow shining at it's pinnacle in the vast sky.
YOU* are made of the same technicolor bits of light.
Firing spontaneously.
Shining on.
Burning out.
On. Off. On. Off.
Humbly Yours,
Lady Rainbow*Faerie Godmother
YOU* are a Rainbow
{nothing}
There is nothing I must write for the experience of Being a Writer.
There is no location on the Planet I must visit to unlock the experience of Awe and Amazement of this island that I live on.
There is no dance class I must take or specific way I must move my body to experience the Joy of Dancing.
There are no amount of people, or anyone at all for that matter, that must like what I do to experience Satisfaction with a Job Well Done.
There is no art piece I must create or picture that I must take to have the experience of Being an Artist.
There is no specific food or medicine that I must put in my Body to then have the Pleasure of feeling Healthy and Full of Well Being.
There is nothing I must drink to then feel Relaxed and At Ease.
There is no drug I can take that will unlock the gates to Enlightenment and Higher Consciousness.
There is nothing I can own or think I possess in order to have the experience of Being Happy.
There is no job I must do, or project I must be involved in to then experience Being Successful.
There is no certain, special people I must have as my Friends to feel the Pleasure of Friendship.
There are no words I can say that will grant me the right to Being Important, Remembered, or Heard.
There is nothing the Government must do so that I can experience Peace of Mind.
There is no amount of Money I must obtain to feel the feeling of Abundance.
There is no special person I must be with, or anyone at all, to experience Love.
There is no schooling, title, or license I can get that will then allow me to use my brain and think for myself.
There is no clothing, shoes, or accessories I must wear or number that must appear on the scale for the privilege of standing in front of the mirror to say, Damn~ I'm Beautiful.
There is no religion or dogma I must adopt and believe in order to experience Heaven.
There is no location on the planet I must reside for the experience of Being Home.
There is no piece of information I must go searching for, find, and possess in order to validate my Being Alive.
There is no Knowing, Understanding, or Belief System I must possess in order to experience Wanting What Is Happening Exactly As It's Happening.
There is nothing I am missing out on that is keeping me from experiencing Being Satisfied, Complete, Happy, Enough.
There are absolutely No requirements to BE Love, Joy, and Peace.
There is nothing to be done.
All I can Do is BE.
(((Perfectly, Privately Just Fine)))
~Aubrey Ixchel
10/1/13