lessons from a spider*

i had an interesting awareness today while out taking care of the chickens. 

while cleaning out the chicken's water dish i saw that a spider had fallen into the dish from the rag i was using. 

my first instinct was to kill the spider,

but i stopped myself.

instead of smashing it, i wondered why my first instinct was to kill this one of a kind, spontaneous happening creature?

then, i scooped the spider up and put it back to where it was.
the spider was now at my eye level and we looked at each other.


it seemed to me that in this moment we had mutual understanding.

we were both just alive standing on the edge of we don't know what's happening next...

and nature humbles once again.